I've been avoiding this blog for a while now. I struggle over what to share and what to say. In blogging I always feel lost in the line between sharing all the inane details of my life and sharing deeper more profound thoughts. Plus the lack of profundity lately seems, I must say... embarrassing. I mean I think about a million things daily, but I don't seem to have enough time to really think it over and share that in an articulate way. I do however find myself addicted to Facebook, where I can share all the randomness of my day in a fast and easy format. I wonder sometimes if we are losing the ability to think deeply at all with some of the technology and speed we now live in. Everything is fast, abbreviated and "entertaining" or we just don't track.
So here is a little bit of both I guess... Since I'm feeling very random.
Randomness:
I bought a new car! Well maybe the technical word is an SUV. I did my research obsessively as usual, but really that is just to justify what I'd already decided... I wanted a new car. The Civic was nice but it was so small and hard to carry people other than myself. I'm way to social for such constraints so now I have a nice pretty Honda CRV. I spent a week working on the deal but finally got one where I feel I didn't get totally screwed over. Though of course the dealer swore up and down they weren't making any money on me. Whatever... They wouldn't have made the deal if they weren't making money.
The snow storm was so crazy here in Portland before Christmas. Everyday was an adventure, but I loved the way the city slowed down and just walked places and got out in their neighborhoods. It was fantastic to see all the people sledding on Tabor or cross country skiing through the streets. I've never seen anything like it.
TV infomercials bring me so many giggles lately. I don't know why but I seem to get an inordinately large amount on the TV stations I watch (and on other randomness I cut cable to afford said vehicle above so its really limited now). My favorites are Smooth Away the magic hair remover that I'm sure just rips the hair out of your skin. OW! The Snuggie, a blanket with arms. You just have to see the commercial and you'll know why I love it. Then there is the one I promised to get my roommate for Christmas but never had the chance, the Ped Egg.
Deeper thoughts: (And I thought I didn't have any?!)
Lately I've been pondering where my ministry focus needs to be next. So far I have no confirmed direction. In fact I think I need to have some more serious prayer and thought in this area. But what is clear is that I seem to be floating. Floating and not invested fully. Am I'm really adding any value right now with the kids in HS? I'm not so sure... I am not sure in fact where I belong anywhere right now.
What I am loving is my weekly prayer times with Kate. These are so essential for my spiritual well being. It keeps me accountable and focused on what God can do in our lives and the lives around us. I do know without a doubt, that prayer is one of the most awesome gifts we've been given. That ability to talk directly to God and hear him speak back to us is so amazing! Also, I feel I need to be focusing on being in the Word more. I need transforming and renewing of my mind. This can really only be achieved by filling it with Truth. My thoughts are overrun with lies sometimes and I need that Truth stored away to combat this.
1/15/2009
11/18/2008
Little by little
I've been back on Weight Watchers again for the last month or more. I've been trying to work diligently to track what I'm eating and make good choices. Step one after my gluttony in Italy in September was to start focusing in on this again. Things have been going pretty good and I've lost some weight. In fact I enjoy eating healthier, it just takes more effort.
Step two was to join the gym. I had to move from the gym at work because its being rennovated so I joined 24hr Fitness. I set up some personal training sessions to get a plan going. So far I'm incredibly sore and I'm still not able to figure out how to make the weight machines fit my short body.
Results... I'm seeing them for sure. I bought a dress from Banana Republic recently that is 2, count'em 2 sizes smaller than I had been wearing a year ago. YAY!! Ok, well its still a little tight but I think it will be perfect soon. The only sad thing in this process is that the coat I spent a good chunk on last winter is now way too big for me (along with a few other key items). So I either pay money to have it taken in, or I buy a new coat. I actually found a few things in my closet that I haven't been able to fit in for years that now are perfect. Kara was laughing because I was having so much fun shopping in my own closet last week.
Step two was to join the gym. I had to move from the gym at work because its being rennovated so I joined 24hr Fitness. I set up some personal training sessions to get a plan going. So far I'm incredibly sore and I'm still not able to figure out how to make the weight machines fit my short body.
Results... I'm seeing them for sure. I bought a dress from Banana Republic recently that is 2, count'em 2 sizes smaller than I had been wearing a year ago. YAY!! Ok, well its still a little tight but I think it will be perfect soon. The only sad thing in this process is that the coat I spent a good chunk on last winter is now way too big for me (along with a few other key items). So I either pay money to have it taken in, or I buy a new coat. I actually found a few things in my closet that I haven't been able to fit in for years that now are perfect. Kara was laughing because I was having so much fun shopping in my own closet last week.
10/19/2008
The Death of Blogging... NO!
I feel I've neglected blogging out here lately because of Facebook. Its hard to find the balance there, but I do think blogging is a great way to express more than a random thought a day. Facebook is great for quick updates of friends and sharing pictures and silly things. But blogging takes more thought. Frankly it pushes me to process some of my life too and sharing it with you all is always good accountability for me. So here's what's been mulling about in my head lately and its not a good post but I suppose I'm a little rusty.
I love, love, love old movies. Colleen loaned me a bag of movies and I'm working my way through The Thin Man series and I'm in love. These characters blow the Gilmore Girls out of the water with all their fast paced dialog and its incredibly witty. For example this is a line I just heard "What do you mean illiterate? My parents were married right here in City Hall!". Classic. I used to work through old movies like this in high school. I'd just start a movie marathon and watch every single one in a row. How else would I have seen every Esther Williams movie made. There is just something so lovely about old films. I adore the clothing, the style, and I think they can knock many of our current day films out of the water. So that's a little happiness.
Knitting... I'm knitting again and I've come to the realization that I'm quite awful at it. Yet I keep going. I will finish Anna's hat! Though I feel its an effort in futility.
Over the Rhine... I'm so giddy I get to see them in December live. Go listen to them and you'll know why.
My house has become a source of endless projects. How do you not always feel behind when you own a house? My gutters need cleaned. I have a dresser that I need to refinish in the garage that's taking up space. Paint that needs patched in my bedroom. But hey, today I got a lamp up in the living room so we can finally see at night. What a novel idea. It required me drilling a nice hole in the plaster in the ceiling and Kara marveling that I even have a drill and can do such a thing. I like my drill, oh and the power sander I used last weekend.
Speaking of novels... I need a new one to read. But I doubt any will compare to my last one finished. But I guess I need to jump into the lake some time.
Bible Study... We started one this week and it was such a blessing to be a part of it. I hosted it at my house but thankfully I'm not the organizer. I think this has been a void in my life for a while. I am definitely feeling the fact that I haven't been in the Word enough lately. I even read through some old journals recently and it just seems I'm on repeat with my issues and struggles in my life. I'm sure they are cycling and progressing some how, but it was a wake up call that I just go through living life sometimes without really living. Just today I was convicted that I am not even prayerfully considering who is lost around me that needs to know about Christ and to feel his love. This makes me sad.
I love, love, love old movies. Colleen loaned me a bag of movies and I'm working my way through The Thin Man series and I'm in love. These characters blow the Gilmore Girls out of the water with all their fast paced dialog and its incredibly witty. For example this is a line I just heard "What do you mean illiterate? My parents were married right here in City Hall!". Classic. I used to work through old movies like this in high school. I'd just start a movie marathon and watch every single one in a row. How else would I have seen every Esther Williams movie made. There is just something so lovely about old films. I adore the clothing, the style, and I think they can knock many of our current day films out of the water. So that's a little happiness.
Knitting... I'm knitting again and I've come to the realization that I'm quite awful at it. Yet I keep going. I will finish Anna's hat! Though I feel its an effort in futility.
Over the Rhine... I'm so giddy I get to see them in December live. Go listen to them and you'll know why.
My house has become a source of endless projects. How do you not always feel behind when you own a house? My gutters need cleaned. I have a dresser that I need to refinish in the garage that's taking up space. Paint that needs patched in my bedroom. But hey, today I got a lamp up in the living room so we can finally see at night. What a novel idea. It required me drilling a nice hole in the plaster in the ceiling and Kara marveling that I even have a drill and can do such a thing. I like my drill, oh and the power sander I used last weekend.
Speaking of novels... I need a new one to read. But I doubt any will compare to my last one finished. But I guess I need to jump into the lake some time.
Bible Study... We started one this week and it was such a blessing to be a part of it. I hosted it at my house but thankfully I'm not the organizer. I think this has been a void in my life for a while. I am definitely feeling the fact that I haven't been in the Word enough lately. I even read through some old journals recently and it just seems I'm on repeat with my issues and struggles in my life. I'm sure they are cycling and progressing some how, but it was a wake up call that I just go through living life sometimes without really living. Just today I was convicted that I am not even prayerfully considering who is lost around me that needs to know about Christ and to feel his love. This makes me sad.
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